Jes fer fun here’ the 2nd part to that post cats n kittens…hope ya’ll enjoy-DYSU


So the questions I have about and for  God (like #1 what the hells up with my brain chemicals lol) are of course infinite.

I do have an almost equal number of questions for his followers here on earth. I mean help a dysfunctional brother out!!

Narrowing it down though, here’s where it ties into the last post.

So many of the Christians I’ve known (God bless their souls) so many of the churches I’ve attended, seem to focus less on the words of Jesus, and more on the rules of the Paul.

And here I don’t mean the original, one of the twelve, no we’re talking Saul, who became Paul, the guy who penned  “Romans”, “Corinthians” etc

That would make the appropriate term for these individuals “Paulists”.

Now I don’t care if you want to be “Paulists” and get all tied up in the anal details of a persecuting…

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I have Faith in my Doubts

November 21, 2013

Well I’m gonna do somethin I don’t often do in these posts, an some of you will be choking on the idea in a minute…the ol dysu

jesus-doin jointI’m gonna talk about God.

See I mean okay and already. First to those who haven’t ran away already, I know it’s hard to believe given some of the topics I’ve written about and the f-bombs and other horrid language I can occasionally use, but I am in dysfunctional in all sorts of ways my cats and kittens. And I tell ya if there’s anything I like talking more about than politics, it’s  God, meaning and purpose of life, religion etc and what have yous.

I jes don’t do a lot of it here. I have jes not much. You can see some earlier posts by clicking on some of the pics below.

I mean you probably should, but I know ya won’t, and there’s no time to get into my dysfunctional Christian (many Christians would say not Christian) beliefs. So you’ll jes have to roll with it.

But again I don’t have time ’cause I’m here to talk about faith and doubt . More specifically about a conversation I was enjoying with another WP Blogger on a post he had written about free will.

Now it jes so happens that I have been perfecting (lol) a post about jes that topic and so I went to read what he had written when notice of the post arrived in my inbox.

You Kids do what you want. No really.

You Kids do what you want. No really.

Now maybe later I will get to the whole free will post and the complexities of believing (as I do)in a Supernatural Natural Being with a  Plan set in motion at the beginning of time which also incorporates as it’s principal actors (or cogs in the great machine of his plan) units with free will. It boggles my ever loving mind but I love thinking about it…

But I gotta focus or I will never get to the faith vs. doubt issue ’cause this one really (in a fun and intellectual way)gets under my craw.

So here it is I wanna give you the opportunity to read his original post and our replies back and forth. I will give you the opportunity but again I don’t think you’ll avail yerself of it.

Ya should be okay to get a general idea of the whole shebang and the (I believe valid) point I was trying to make.

Understand before you do continue that I think he might have blocked me from replying anymore. I hope it’s due to my long replies and not the subject matter (though I know many bloggers just want people to like their posts or fawn over their wisdom which is not the ol’ Units way). I only comment the way I wish others would comment on mine…(is that too obvious n pathetic)

Annnyway! Here is my reply to his reply to my reply.

Oh and obviously I’ve added the pictures jes for the post here.

Thank you for you thoughtful reply. I will try to be a tad more succinct than my earlier ramble.
First let me say that if I hear you correctly you have complete faith that you’re going to heaven, simply questions (doubts) about the process.
Hopefully I’ve gotten that right.
Now as to faith vs doubt, light vs dark etc 🙂
While I believe your argument is sound from philosophical view. That I can understand the concept of light without knowing the concept of darkness. I believe in practical application I can only truly understand light, if I have known darkness.
Can I begin to comprehend lights importance to my life, it’s warmth, glory and all that it brings if I have not experienced it’s absence?

As to faith with out doubt, I find one of your comments particularly applicable. You state “If I have faith I am going to Heaven, then I am not doubting I am going to Heaven.” (isn’t possible to have both?)

This tells me two things (or I’m ass u me ing 🙂 two things.

1: When you say you have faith you are going to Heaven, you mean to say you are “100 % sure” you are going to Heaven.
2: This Surety leaves no doubts about your afterlife.

But surety is not faith. They are polar opposites. (as compared to doubt and faith which are related opposites)

I either am sure something is true, I know it to be true, or I believe it to be true, have faith that it is true.

Once I know something to be true I no longer have need of faith.

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAI ask, if I have assumed the above correctly and the faith you have is so strong you have no doubts whatsoever about your place in Heaven (and I have known many Christians who profess the same so I am not judging your belief and acknowledge that I may indeed be wrong) I must as always respectfully disagree.

I believe that no Christian should feel 100 % assured of their spot in Heaven…(that becomes a different discussion on sin we can satan1save for later).

Now I must admit that this might  just be a personal problem.

I, for my part at least (and granted not only did I spend much of my youth celebrating and promoting sin, but that stain and those years have left me a little…more colorful than many Christians I know) am fearful and respectful of God’s wrath and am concerned about my afterlife. Yes I have been baptized confirmed, baptized a second time, (and then a third when I wouldn’t stop misbehaving in my 20’s lol).

Now of course I’m older and make better choices, but I still live with that/those demon(s) in my head.

Will I get into Heaven. I have faith that I will, but I do not know.

I personally don’t even know there’s a heaven, but I believe in one, do have faith in an afterlife.

Jesus As MeThis is when I guess that I must bother many other Christians.  They will begin to discuss with me the countless thousand ways I can be more sure. Most of them revolve around my music and movie choices…now of course they don’t read this blog.

As far as I can tell from all I could understand it boils down to having faith in Jesus as the Son(representative), and what God see when he looks into my heart on judgement day. The rest is kind of a mish mash of guidelines more than absolutes.

You may see this different than I do, many Christians do.

I did once and spent a lot of time trying to dissect this passage or that law to determine what it means to walk in faith. It was driving me crazy….lol crazier

I felt, for me anyway I had to let go and trust that God knows his stuff. Things I’m never going to be able to puzzle out I don’t need too (though I still do fer fun).


I was okay.

Having faith wanting to do good, to be open and receptive to the Holy Spirit inside me(us). To allow God to use that spirit to fufill his plan using me. That’s all I had to do.

That doesn’t mean I never have doubts. It means that despite my doubts I have faith in His plan.

I pray daily that I am or becoming a good actor in that plan but also am comfortable in the knowledge that  His Will is in action and until I get to Heaven I cannot “know” anything.

Jeez I’m so sorry I haven’t even gotten to free will and this has turned into a usual seemingly unending ramble. I hope you will be open to further discussions but either way…
These are the kind’a opinions I’m booted from Bible studies for so I thank you for the opportunity to discuss this/these issues in such an in depth, fun and open way. OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERA

God Bless ya


Oh It is to Laugh

October 21, 2013

I don’t know Cats & Kittens. I just don’t know anymore. I mean I often come across as some super Republican. But the truth is so much morethe ol dysu complicated, as it is with many people, than that simple label implies.

I have said this many times, (though often near the bottom of my post, so today it’s gettin bumped up) I used to be a revolutionary screamin leftist liberal, right up until the end of the second Clinton era. Ten years ago or so, that’s pretty recent fer an old guy like me.

See here’s the deal like most of my generation I grew up believing that the democrats were the party of liberty and freedom.

I was told, and believed, that Republicans were all rich, white old men.

I was told that, and believed even worse, that many were Klu Klux Klan style crazy Christians seeking to turn us back into some 50’s bible belt Nazi Nation (funny how the song hasn’t changed huh?).

Get in the kitchen and bake me a baby!

Get in the kitchen and bake me a baby!

I tried to find the creator of theis funny piece that is all over the net...but I only have so many years left

I tried to find the creator of theis funny piece that is all over the net…but I only have so many years left.

Republicans were fer beating women, enslaving minorities, wrecking the environment, and worst of all, worst of all, restricting my liberties as an American.

Of course the only Republican I knew, I mean really knew was my Dad, and I’m not sure now if I only imagined he was. He was an authoritarian though. And wore power suits. And wanted to restrict my liberties.

I'll give ya somethin to cry about!!

I’ll give ya somethin to cry about!!

So anyway yea I became a democrat. Not just a democrat, I mean I was on the extreme left. Hated republicans and conservatives irrationally, (of course that’s in hindsight). When the 80’s came and Reagan got elected my friends and I were so sure he was gonna start WW III that we began to practice for the ultimate coming Armageddon by spending weeks in our local hills survival camping.

Okay so yea and then it didn’t happen. But they were still evil. I was a conscience American, read the paper, watched the news. I was a member of Beyond War and Earth First. I wrote poetry. All through the first Bush presidency railed as a homeless  radical left wing performance artist about the right wing fascist, about the CIA-South America-Cocaine-Bush connection,  about the Moral Majority and Christian right like any good radical socialist would do.

From Vietnam & the Golden Triangle during the Vietnam war-To South America and the Cocaine Kingpins of the late 70's-80's the CIA was involved(?) in all. And who was intrinsic player and even led the CIA during these some of these years? Yea Baby none other than Neo Conserv GWB 1 !

From Vietnam & the Golden Triangle during the Vietnam war-To South America and the Cocaine Kingpins of the late 70’s-80’s the CIA was involved(?) in all. And who was intrinsic player and even led the CIA during these some of these years? Yea Baby none other than Neo Conserv GWB 1 !

After all I was fighting for the party of truth, justice and the American way. The party of true American liberty.

Then came the Clinton’s, hooray we had won and the world was gonna be free free from the evil Republicans. The party of tolerance and liberty, free speech and fun times, the party of my hero HST had seized power.

Does anyone really think that HST and Mrs C. would have gotten along.

Does anyone really think that HST and Mrs C. would have gotten along.

No Fan of Liberty

No Fan of Liberty

Did I say, then came the Clinton’s, I guess more specifically Mrs. Clinton, and maybe I was maturing, maybe the Democrats, the liberals had always been this way and I just hadn’t noticed.  Either way by the time the Clinton’s were done I had to accept that neither party was for liberty, neither party was really for average Americans,.

Old Glory

Old Glory

But there was a difference I could see; one party was for conservative money corporations, military strength, had a realistic world view, solid core American cultural values, the other (my old party) was for liberal money projects and non-profit corporations, world view based on theories of universal love and humanism, for increasing the pace of disassembling our military, creating a European style of socialism in America, a continued pop culture assault on traditional America as the most Evil racist nation on earth, despite mounting evidence to the contrary.

Follow Me to a Brave New World

Follow Me to a Brave New World

Looking at these two philosophies, ideologies, it’s not hard to decide which one to roll with, I mean as an American citizen, and not a citizen of the world.

One cheated and lied for American interest, one did like wise but against the interest of the country they call home, in favor of the world.

All my friends at the time mercilessly mocked me, outright called me racist, my own brother has called me a racist, called me a brain washed goon and worse.

When I dared to suggest that it was really the democrats who were the party of restricting liberties. I was kicked out of the poetry pals club. Took my leftist pin and stripped me of my groovy guy rating.

Left Right Map

I didn’t make this, just liberated it from the web. Click for link 🙂

Ya see by then I had met some conservatives, some republicans. Eighty percent of them were jes regular, freedom loving, by God Americans (a far better percentage than the other side).

About half were for repealing Roe vs Wade and half weren’t (many conservatives like myself, are possibly for more abortions, I mean why should we pay fer yer baby if you don’t want it).

A couple Republicans I’ve met were gay, Many are of different races or cultures of origin. Republicans are, in regards to variety, not much different than liberals.

See the saddest thing of all is that it won’t matter what I say. It won’t matter if you go and look at the evidence. If you are honest you’d see the truth about conservatives regarding this idea that they are white racist. but you won’t look, won’t let yerself see it even if you look.

Just like you can’t admit the war on poverty has failed. It doesn’t matter to you. Seeing the truth won’t matter to you.

If you believe in this ideology, this religion of man, you will jes believe we haven’t yet gone far enough.

Because reality based results don’t matter, good intentions matter.

Liberals hate conservatives over this rejection of the ideology of good intentions, ideology of second place, of failure, where intentions overrule results.

It doesn’t matter if Obamacare doesn’t work it’s intentions were pure…

I mean, super libs blast Christians as ignorant backwards intolerant believers in a archaic superstition.

Yet they believe in the power of rainbow wishes (humanist idealism) despite the harsh reality of concrete examples of this humanist ideology, the countless failed and broken systems, that it has left in it’s historical wake. (well you get the meaning hopefully I’m sick of reworking that sentence)

Oh t is to laugh

Oh t is to laugh.

While Christian cultures continue to flourish using a foundational system of self reliance attached to community responsibility as moral obligation with eternal accountability as it’s guarantor.

Humanism has no such guarantor. It assumes people are born good and need no moral guidance. But that all humans naturally know how to treat one another. In fact they have argued for at least the last fifty years (and often successfully considering today’s pop culture)that it is by trying to mold a child to the good (most times by Christians) that we turn out the worst societal monsters. They believe indeed that children can teach adults instead of vice versa.

Humanists ridicule Christians for believing God created the world.

Humanists ridicule Christians for believing “God created the world…

Humanists and the left have dismissed and ridiculed believers in God. Belittled them as intolerant and hypocritical. They have over the years converted the masses who turned once turned to God for their needs. They (the masses) have now have been schooled (literally) and conditioned, turning from God and the Church for assistance to receiving aid from and dependence on the Government.

..When everyone knows it was aliens."

When everyone knows it was aliens.

The Government doesn’t care about your adherence to a moral code in order to give you what you need (and more besides).

So liberalism is jes a new religion (freeing it’s followers from the moral restraints of previously socially “backwards” ideas and responsibilities) and it’s adherents are true believers, as unwilling to consider an alternative viewpoint, as a group of Bible studiers are to consider that maybe the Bible’s not meant to be taken literally.

It has to fail before we know if it will work.

It has to fail before we know if it will work.

They are rabid, raging unhinged and unreachable.

We shall rule you, and you shall be grateful!

We shall rule you, and you shall be grateful!

Whatever they once were. The democrats are certainly no longer the party of liberty.

Perhaps they never were and i was just naive.

Today, one of the people that was instrumental in my own personal pursuit of liberty and truth Rush Limbaugh had a great example of this irrationality of his show. I’m gonna share his sharing.

He was talking about a listener who had called in with the following story (paraphrasing in my words as Rush related it):

I know, I know. I hated him too, until I listened to him. He's really funny, uplifting and loveable fluffball.

I know, I know. I hated him too, until I listened to him. He’s really funny, uplifting and just an all around harmless loveable fluffball.

This listener had a big family Thanksgiving , 50 people.

Many in the family were liberals.

To have fun with them this gentleman, as Rush told it, decided to hold a little blind taste test of bottled ice tea using Rush’s “Two if by Tea”.

All labels were removed,  The tea was served in unmarked cups.

This tea tastes great!

This tea tastes like hate!

27 out of 28 liberals preferred the “Two if by Tea”.

And okay so that’s a pretty funny joke, and ya’d think they would blushingly admit something a long the lines of say “well at least the guy can make tea!”

I mean that’s honest. But instead they freaked out. The family members said they’d been tricked and a near riot broke out.

I won’t describe the rest. And I understand you might believe Rush is full of the old crap-o-la. Ya know I used to as well. But I have experienced this irrational hatred myself on many occasion since switching sides. Try reading pro American poetry at a University poetry reading.

Their hate is so irrational that they cannot be reached, cannot be reasoned with. And I fear can no longer be defeated.

The monster I helped build is now lose among us. Maybe too big to kill. Maybe the only thing to do now is to wait.

It will continue to feed until it’s so bloated it implodes on itself.

Yer tax payer dollars at work.

Yer tax payer dollars at work.

For awhile following the death of this Fedgovstien America will be like a Walmart when the EBT service goes kaput.

But if we hang in there, keep faith and work hard it’s just possible that maybe our children’s children will have some relief.

If they don’t speak Chinese by then.


Sinners Sermon

July 29, 2013

So yea anyway, I  know some of you will struggle with this idea, having read some of my other posts, that I call myself a christian and strongly desire to use this space to among other controversial things and taboo topics, have a conversation ’bout Godthe ol dysu. But that’s jes another way, I guess oh my most faithful Cat’s & Kittens, that I the old Dysu is dysfunctional.

See the thing is reading these blog posts is jes like hangin out with the Unit fer a day. Ya never know what yer gonna hear, but much of it is gonna be jes wrong on many levels. I don’t know why, well I mean, I do have my theories  many of which I have written ’bout already in earlier posts.

But if yer an Every Word of the Bible is Literal person or, (fer the convenience of this post) an EWBL’r, then God knew ahead of time what I was gonna be like and the exact reason why.

Now I believe and accept the premise that I have free will, this is not that old Calvinistic debate, but to God the question of my free will is moot.

Okay and so before we begin, lets jes agree on some basics can we?.  I already knew/know that these concepts are Biblically accurate. I spent the winter in a bible study here in Palace city and while they did not like the conclusions they could not argue with the following

G21 At the beginning of everything there is God and His plan.

2 The plan is set in motion at the beginning of time.

3This plan, set in action eons before I was born, already included me and every decision I would make, action I would take and/or etc etc etc(or are you suggesting I could act in a way that would surprise God[the guy who knows everything])

If all the above are true then (and if you are an EWLB’r you must agree that they are true) then my having free will means nothing to God. I am going to do what I have always been going to do according to God set in motion at the beginning of time. Now against all that, what choice do I have.


But my point isn’t to excuse my, our actions, or to blame God, because I still do believe they’re my choices, (I know, I know it gets really complicated here meta-physically)and I have faith that it’s all working out and I believe that God will also be accountable and when I get there I will say ohhhh…I get it now, but…and again that’s not the point I’m tryin to make here.

god as builderLemme see if it works better if I use an allegory…What I am tryin to say is that if I’m a Master Builder and I  plan to build a house, and about a quarter of my materials are bad, but these are the materials I have tstone-masonryo work with, and I know that I can build an f-in great house even with these materials, I go ahead and build the house. But the bad materials gotta go in, they are now part of the plan.

So when it says in the Bible that  “all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” (* there are a number of differing interpretations of this verse depending on the version of the Bible yer quoting) but this is the passage from my old stand by and we can see two things from this passageholyfamily-thumb

1 All things are working for the good of God, not me, not you, not the bestest Christians among us, but for God. But of course, in the end, what is good for God is good for me. So this first part means that the plan works for the good of God, which in turn will be good for me (even though many Christians like to read it the opposite way.) And that this call, to make, assist with the “all things” is “to those who are called according to his purpose”. Who is this then?  **Many Christians define this passage as meaning themselves, only Christians, brothers in Christ. But is that what the original intent was?But let’s go back and pay attention to our conversation above.

If we agreed that everyone has to be part of the plan or there can be no plan, then everyone is in on this deal or no one is.

If you are an EWLB’r you have believe this to be true. Because this is what the good book says….

The Bible very clearly over and over asserts that points 1,2 & 3 from above are true…there is no disputing that

“Now hold on,” Says you, the ever vigilant bible scholar “my Bible says somethin different bout this called to purpose…

“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.NIV (*, **)

Okay well lets look at that (this is a common reinterpretation of this passage in newer versions of the Bible, though the interps of course are many and varied).

Are you sayin that God (& by default then God’s plan) is busy working for the good of me? Or even more specifically those who have been called according to his purpose which has a pre-qualifier of those who love Him.Buddy Jesus

So reading this passage we can now see it reads that God’s plan is working for me if I love him, because then I’m included in His plans’ which are busy working for my good. And also I guess ergo and or ipso facto I cannot be called according to His purpose if I do not love him,  and conversley He will not be working for my good. (the re-interpreter does not claim whether God will actively work against me, jes that he won;t work for me)

Wha, wha, wha, what?!?…

Okay so here’s where I get into trouble ’cause that’s jes the kind’a logic that’s sets me off.

If you are a true believer, and EWLB’r this interpretation does not mesh well with points 1, 2 & 3, I’m sorry (not really) but are you trying to tell me as did one agitated Bible Study member, instantly regretting the words as they spewed from his angry lips…

“Maybe not everyone is part of God’s plan!”

I had never heard a Christian say these words a loud, I knew he didn’t believe them I had jes backed them all in a corner and he had panicked.

i of course responded “Are you saying there are some people jes doing there own thing, not part of God’s paln. free and independent agents as it were?”

And here I am asking the same question of you if you an EWLB’r who believes as this gentlemen jesus-doin jointdid.

“Maybe I am” He wasn’t of course. He did not believe what he said.

“Show me yer Biblical support” A common challenge at Bible Study

“I asked you to show me yours first”…

Oh yea I fergot to mention that see…I have a habit of saying “ahh well His will be done” or “His will be done”, have it tattooed on my back to remind me-


And I guess really gotten under this guy’s skin, a minister, missionary, theologian who knew both the Latin and Greek interpretation of every biblical passage, a super liberal, beardy, intellectual, who also knew far more than me about all things Bible, Biblical, Bibliography (okay jes added that one fer fun). As we were finishing up I said my little saying…something having to do with a terrible thing like slavery or maybe a Native American issue….

So of course I said here Ahh well God’s will be done (or the like) and he said,

“What do you mean by that?! You’re always saying that?! God isn’t to blame for everything you know!? Not everything is God’s will!”

5067546_f520I said of course I respectfully disagreed and though I didn’t believe like he did, that every word of the bible is true, I did believe the part where it says God knows all, known all since the beginning, and that “all” includes me and “all” about me from my deepest thoughts to my most outrageous and spontaneous actions. He, they had all agreed on this earlier so he was stuck here.

“Yes, yes!” He said even more frustrated having to rehash this earlier debate that he/they had lost “but I asked you to support your claim that everything that happens is God’s will.”

I repeated my claim that it was not my words but the Bibles, repeated that I no longer obsessed (as I did for a year or so in my twenties) with memorizing verses (it made me too crazy) but (and again I was repeating) “the one that says “that all things work to the good of God, for those who are called to his purpose” I mean I know I am paraphrasing”…

Finally one of the others spoke up. “He means Romans 28.”

They all went to their Bible’s and starting throwing out the various versions of Romans 28.

Earlier in the day they had upbraided me for saying, suggesting really that the Bible was a complicated book.

They had all assured me the Bible was easy to understand for those who were ready to submit to God’s authority.

I stood, interrupting the erupting debate.

“I believe” I began still smiling, “Just like I said I did. ”

You talking NIV or NIV(nr)?

You talking NIV or NIV(nr)?


They stared at me as if I was crazy.




With nothing more to add I left the McDonalds and they went back to their debate over the NIV version the NIV(nr), NAS, NCV, LEB, HCS, TMB, etc etc etc ad infinitum, ad naseum


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Okay here’s the deal, I mean I know  that the few of you who read these posts possibly think I’m some kind’a a-hole, that I’m mean and cranky and just…wrong on so many levels. I’ll be the first to admit I’ve said some outlandish things, not saying I do not believe my points to be supportable by valid arguments, they are just…slightly outside of mainstream thinking…take my stand on abortion as an example.

I don’t support abortion, but I do support a women having the right to kill her fetus if she so chooses. I just want those women to admit that’s what they are doing. It’s not just a tumor, a mass of your own cells gone somehow out of control. It is a new life. I’m sorry but the DNA evidence proves it out. It is not you, that’s all, that’s my argument. What’s yer counter?…

Nothing,…not a peep.

I know there are a lot of women on this site… a lot of women on this site who support reproductive rights, I don’t want ya to think I’m not right there with ya, I just want us to be honest.

Oh and wait while we’re being honest, I also don’t think the Government should be forcing religious institutions to act contrary to their doctrines.

Funny (well you might not think so) but, contrary to what many of you believe, the founding fathers, wanting to avoid a federally designated Religion (separation of church and state for you rtds) had little to do with fear of God in Government (they were religious men themselves) and all to do with the fear of Government meddling in Church affairs. Again if you think I’m full o’ crapola don’t be afraid to say so.

Now all this makes it sound like I’m on the side of the right to lifers, but nothing could be further from the truth. I don’t want the so called “religious right” to restrict your rights any more than I want you to restrict theirs.

And again it’s really the flaw in their main argument that drives me crazy. The God that we both believe in gave us humans free will, why are you so hot to legislate that away?

And all this hate and anger what’s that about? I know I wrote about it before, but every time this issue comes up I am always surprised at the amount of vitriol I read and hear spewed from so called Christians.  I mean call me crazy,(and I’m sure many of you do lol) but I’m pretty sure if God wanted to end abortion he could.

And of course, when I wrote this last time it got my little dog whirling in my brain and I had to wonder, why he hadn’t yet? I mean it seems like something God might concern himself with…all those poor innocent souls…what could be the reason for letting such a thing continue.

Okay I mean I know there are a lot of other horrors in this world, many of them befalling the newly or near newly born, but it is a lot of babies souls, sorry fetus’s souls piling up in heaven. I mean, cause they would be going straight to heaven (unless yer Catholic then it’s Limbo till judgement day[this is being hotly debated between Lil Mouse and I, we will let you know what research bears out]) but either way it’s a hell (excuse the lame pun) of a lot of pure, sin free,  innocent souls?

What, if anything, could God use say, a few million unblemished souls for? Is there any clue? Anything in the Good Book?

Well, I mean hell if I know, I’m not God, but what I do know is that I have been assured that in the long run (that is if I actually believe what I say I believe) it will all work out according to His plan.

I mean call me dysfunctional, but isn’t the apocalypse coming this December?


The Tree Falls Alone Pt 2

November 19, 2011

So the questions I have about and for  God (like #1 what the hells up with my brain chemicals lol) are of course infinite.

I do have an almost equal number of questions for his followers here on earth. I mean help a dysfunctional brother out!!

Narrowing it down though, here’s where it ties into the last post.

So many of the Christians I’ve known (God bless their souls) so many of the churches I’ve attended, seem to focus less on the words of Jesus, and more on the rules of the Paul.

And here I don’t mean the original, one of the twelve, no we’re talking Saul, who became Paul, the guy who penned  “Romans”, “Corinthians” etc

That would make the appropriate term for these individuals “Paulists”.

Now I don’t care if you want to be “Paulists” and get all tied up in the anal details of a persecuting authoritarian with a self flagellation fetish.

I don’t care if ya wanna focus on nit-picking rules and ignore the overall theme.

Just don’t call yourself Christians.

I mean these are the kind’a things that really fuel my dysfunction.

Words mean something.

Which leads me to another big issue I have with the way Christianity has been set up from the very beginning….wait…what?

I know, I talk about believing in God and Jesus and stuff, then I spend time openly mocking such beliefs.

Both of those statements are true. I don’t know why it’s such a problem to have faith and to question at the same time.

But I believe if God made my brain, then he made it dysfunctional, made it in such a way that it questions and searches and mocks, even itself…

A little dog chasing it’s tail..it is to lol as you young kids say

Okay anyway so back at it. The word in this instance is sacrifice (here’s where Little Mouse would like me to put a definition in, but hell if you don’t know the definition of sacrifice please stop reading this post and immediately pick up a f-ing dictionary).

In this case of course we’re talking about the big one, the sacrifice to end all sacrifices, the big S, the foundation of the whole darn Christian theology.

And God so loved the world that he sent…okay well we all know it (again, if not, stop! This time…Bible).

But he wasn’t really His “son“, not like you and I think of it, we can also all agree on that.

So what do we have, lets examine it.

This Supreme Being (beyond our understanding) somehow takes a part of it’s self, like propagating a new species of flower, or like cloning (I’m not saying that’s what it was, just an intellectual reference point). I mean if you believe all this stuff, then you believe this too be true also yes? Am I right so far?

Okay so things get weird from here on out, (I’ll have Little Mouse check my sentence structure later lol) hopefully I can write it out so that this dysfunction of mine will be properly addressed.

The things is if I’m the Supreme Being and I have a plan that calls for me to temporarily remove, dissect, diffuse, (whatever ya’ wanna call it) a “piece” of myself and use it to co-opt this tiny fetus, full well knowing that in roughly thirty years or so ( less than a nano-second to God) it will  return to me, that’s not a sacrifice; maybe at best I’d give ya’ an inconvenience.

Okay so what about Jesus, the man? He went through heck-a-rooni, bled and died fer our sins (as the Bible relates this is the Sacrifice aspect).

However, by this point Jesus the man had some understanding of his role in the whole affair, knew that somehow he was…different…he was separate. As is evidenced by his own words, knew he was returning to his “Father” and would be the “Way” for poor, begrudgeful, sinful humanity to achieve life everlasting in God’s Heavenly kingdom (?).

And yes he did suffer horribly and Jesus, the man, chose to do so for us. That is a sacrifice…

He did know though, that at the end he’d be rewarded fer this act, knew that he somehow was the key to God’s/His (Jesus being also God) plan.

My question is: If this is the Big Sacrifice, isn’t it diminished just a bit by Jesus the man having this awareness of his role.

We do have one shining example of sacrifice, of true sacrifice, in this whole story.

A guy who was most likely suffered mental anguish and torment for weeks as his moment in history approached. Who most likely held long internal debates. We could easily imagine that he had trouble sleeping, eating, felt increasingly isolated from his peers.

A follower of Jesus, this man was called to do God’s dirtiest work, and was rewarded, not with the right hand seat, but an eternity (again if ya’ believe this whole thing, and here I mean of course if you believe in exact literal interpretation) suffering in hells deepest fires.

Now that’s some kind’a sacrifice.

Who was this man, who once realizing how badly he had been double duped, who understanding rightly that his name would now be vilified through out human history, took his own life as the punch line to this cosmic joke?

We all know by now I mean Judas. Judas Iscariot.

And so it came to me that we believers in God who are searching for understanding, a deeper understanding of the word sacrifice; perhaps we should look closer at Judas.

What would that be then? An Iscariote,? An Iscariite? No. Iscarianism?

Ahhh better dogs than mine will have to figure that one out.

Oh it is to laugh…so now that was fun wasn’t it


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